How do you deal…..
How do you deal when friends are hurting, and you have to sit and watch, and not be able to do anything? Do you suck it up, life goes on after all? Do you hide yourself away in a corner somewhere, walking this world aimless? Do you join them in the end?
These questions have been haunting me for a while now, and though I have tried my best to ignore them, now at this point in time……… I just can’t ignore them anymore.
This would be a big enough weight on ones shoulders, with only having one person that I feel powerless in helping, but now, I have two very close friends that I am powerless to help.
Two exceptional people, who have helped so many in their young lives, will be taken from this world in what is realistically a very short time. Two people who have come to be considered two of my closest friends. I can laugh with them, share anything with them, confide things in them, trust them. Two people who know most if not all of my deepest secrets, two people who truly know who I actually am, who understand me, know how to piss me off or how to calm me down. They can tell when I am angry, can tell when something is on my mind, can tell when I am happy, can tell when I am sad. They back off when I need my space, push me when I need to realize things, slap me side the head when I need it.
Two exceptional people, one of whom I have never actually met in person…..How can they both know me so well? How will I deal, when the only two people who know me this well are gone from this world? Guess time will tell, and as one of these friends once wrote…..Does time truly heal all wounds?
In a heartbeat, without more then a single thought, If I could, I would take the pain, the hurt, the “city” as he calls it, from him, Giving him a chance to carry on the work he has so diligently worked over the years. I would also and give my heart to the other. So she to can carry on the work that she chooses, work that is desperately needed.
A worthy sacrifice of my own health so two great people could still help so many more who need it. So they could be happy and ultimately, so they could be together. They both deserve to be happy, deserve to be healthy. The happiest I have ever seen/heard from both of them, was when they are together. The love they have for the other, hidden away, protected, is larger then most happily married couples I know. Knowing that the two of them will not be together in this world saddens me greatly, but alas is yet something else I can not control.
